meghan is back in omaha & jeri is in long island so cristi & i went out for dinner & cupcakes last night. i had a glass of pinot noir, a salad with avocado & black beans & then we capped off the evening with a cupcake from billy's. for some reason i was in bed by 11 p.m. i want to enjoy my last sunday in new york. i love getting up before the hordes of people start milling down 34th street & enjoy less honking, less sweating, less crowds.

i'm ready to head "home" for a few weeks but i haven't been in glenwood since march, steven's funeral. months later, i try to pretend it didn't happen but seeing the change in john reminds me all too well that it did.