12.21.2004

in three days i will be in honduras.

it seems crazy and unbelievable right now.

i have crammed my life into tiny jansport and am carrying with me 75 rolls of kodak tri-x 400.

12.14.2004

go for long walks, indulge in hot baths, question your assumptions, be kind to yourself, live for the moment, loosen up, scream, curse the world, count your blessing, just let go, just be.
carol shields

i've been going to bed early so i can wake up and enjoy the morning.. pancakes at hamburg then collaging and drinking tea and reading.. and a little studying here and there.

ten days from tomorrow i will be in honduras.

i hope for lots of sun and wine and good conversation and wide eyes.

12.07.2004

ginseng tea/music in the ped mall with heith/hendrix t-shirt/sam's pizza/pigtails/meeting an amazing girl friend/boulevard wheat/running in the rain/a message from nic/fleetwood mac/lunch at baldy's with michael/a-plus on my essay/afternoons in the darkroom/m&m's and red stripe/dancing in one eyed jake's/a new breakfast place

today i wore my silver ballet flats with pink bows. i got a haircut. i almost fell asleep in the bathtub. i had an almond cappuccino with betsy and alana. i smiled at strangers today. i danced around to postal service in my apartment.

i'm falling in love with life again. after two months of moving too fast i became terrified of standing still. i chose to make november a month of tea and daydreaming and used bookstores. i want mad love/traveling/daisies/old records/good stories. i want to live a life that reflects those wants.. i want so many moments piled on top of one another. i am lucky and feeling so grateful.

"throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back - a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country."
anais nin